my tutor probably thinks i'm stupid or something because i kept zoning out on him yesterday and kept making careless mistakes like using the arc length instead of the radius and things like that. besides, i couldn't complete one single question on my own. it wasn't my fault though, 7 isn't exactly a very godly hour to be up during the holidays.

anyway, i was just thinking about that and i've sorta come to the conclusion that it might not be too bad to be stupid. maybe then people would just leave you alone and quit comparing your grades with some other smart assed person who spends all their time mugging and have no life. besides, i don't get why people always have to classify someone else by which school they go to or which class they're in. i mean, isn't trying your best enough? i'm quite sick of people going "wow!" or "so smart" and going on about how goddamned smart i must be when i tell them i'm from SCGS. if only they knew... i'm also so sick of having to live up to someone elses expectations just cause they think you're supposed to be so intelligent.

this sucks. sometimes i wish i really were an idiot, then maybe i'd be able to just curl up unnoticed in a corner and watch the world go by.