haven't written in a long long time. nothing much out of the ordinary has happened anyway. think my system's gotten used to the school routine already. up at 6, force food down throat, leave house by 6.30, get to school at 7 and the like.

the last couple of days have felt really tiring but looking back, i see i haven't done much in terms of getting right down to studying. i sleep close to 12am wondering what i've been doing to keep me up so late but i can't think of anything. it's like i try to study but it doesn't work because i don't particularly feel like doing so. therefore, i end up stoning instead. *sigh*

everyone's getting really stressed out already and it's just the beginning of the year. still, i can feel the pressure rising, not only from the teachers and all that but also from my parents. everyone's demanding so much from us. all the teachers are giving us mountains of homework, add that to the mounting number of major and minor tests and the like and you've got yourself one very screwed up year ahead. looking ahead is frightening. the total uncertainty of everything is truely intimidating. guess we'll just have to take it a day at a time huh? as someone once said, what doesn't tear you apart only makes you stronger, or something like that. might not have been used in this context, but it does apply, does it not?