hmm.. random blog hopping is rather therapeutic. calming, yet i'm wondering what on earth am doing here instead of revising for today's paper.

anyway, looked through my previous entries and it struck me that perhaps i've trust issues. [thinks about erikson's 8 "ages" of development, the first being trust vs. mistrust ie. the child must know that it's basic needs will be met by caregivers and that the world is a safe place, or else mistrust will predominate. oh dear, does that mean that my basic needs as a child weren't met?! doubt so. oh well.. DIGRESS!] as i was saying, i've realised that am not very forthcoming with details, i'll mention something vaguely and move on to something else. perhaps there's a fear that if i give out too much information, someone will be able to use that against me sometime. in that same way, not many people know what exactly is happening in my life either because i am reluctant to tell them (and they are all too nice to probe). heh.

but at the same time, i (being very egocentric and attention seeking,) want to shout out to the world- "look at me! look at me!".

one big fat contradiction, i know. haha. am weird, not that i just realised.

well, food for thought anyhow. and back to the books, i should be going.

fingers crossed.